I don't know how to start, so I guess I am gonna get into chase directly.
well , Recently I have been dating someone, we found each other through manjam, i liked his profile he has written an impressive introduction, his profile has no pictures , though
I got so attracted to know him more.
I sent him my email & the chat begins, we chatted alot to a point i felt like i know him & I am so into his mind, he seemed so amature & honest.
At some day he asked for a meeting & to those who doesn't know me very well , I am all new into this I mean dating thing , I was refusing being gay & it's a bit complicated & I am thinkin to start writin about it in future, but now back to the that guy ...
I didn't feel it's wrong , even he is in another town, the time we spent chattin, sms, calling each other ws too long & It seemed like I know this person we talked alot , we opened cams , he said he's into me , he txt me saying I miss u , he wanted a comtiment , anyway, when we met he invited me after the walk we did to his place, i said yes since the plan was to sleep in his place , I know what do you think guys, I swear to god that I have nth in mind, since we didnt talked about sex at all, when we got home we sit down , talked have some pepsi then , wait read the next two lines :
(just a note: I am not an angel but I didn't try the hard sex saving myself to my mate, so all I did was oral sex but a month ago i did it once with someone just to remove the tension ...)
he got closer to me,i didn't refuse since i was into him & i thought he is so... so we did it we did the whole thing & i was happy I am doing it with someone i do really like, there was some signs makes me feel uncomfortable but i ignored it just the idea I am with someone he said he loved me is great , I thought I am so paranoied but when the guy you are with doesn't kiss you, it's so clear, I was so an idiot to believe him & let him touch me...
It was so pathtic to let my messed feelings & low self-esteem conivenced me to do it even when i felt ,all what he want is to screw me...
anyways after that he told me that his friends are coming next day in the early mornin so he's so sorry , I couldn't sleep over that night, but next time it would be ok...
I was so shocked & tried as much as i could to act cool, I didn't want him to see me crying , so i put myself together & left thinking again not to be so paranoied ...
I sent him a sms to thank him for the good time we shared even it was not good for me , since he didn't kiss me or touch me , the only thing he did was the hard part, but I was like I wanna try to let him like me ...
from that day & i am tryin to call , chat or sms & i failed , till he unfriended me from his manjam account after he added me so finally I have got the message!!!
well after that I got down & depressed thinking what's wrong i had done to be treated this way & i found nothing not because I am an angel but i really was so honest with him but he lied & dumped me like nth...
Anyway please be careful guys & dont be fooled by sweet words , there is alot of assholes out there...
