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What I am Supposed to do?

I have been questionin the whole thing for such a long time & Now I'm just tired

I don't know if I am right or wrong, Actually I couldn't care less now!!!

All I want is Peace of mind...

Everyone in this life faces alot of issues which makes him/her the person who is!!!

But this is way tougher & more complicated, messier & much more fucked up...

In addtion to all we have to face, we have to face with our emotions, double lifes

we have & GOD!!!

I have spent alot of time trying to be good, trying to change but I alway failed

and everytime I hated myself more & more for being a sinner & to think in this way

I have tried to change myself, pushin' what i feel deep down thinkin' some day

they are gonna vanshied but suprise suprise, They are not & now I'm a miserable guy

who knows nth about gay life...

Going out & meeting some great guy s was the most amazin' thing that could ever happen

to me, I know have some gay friends, but the problem is they are far away in this road, I just

can't jump, the gap is huge.

You have no idea how closed, miserable I was , well now I am out , miserable guy...

I just don't know what I am writin' I just feel like i belong to no where & no one is really

there to raise the hell of me up!!!