Is it suppose to b this hard?

hey guys,

Wish everything is good with you :)

recently i have started datin , which is by the way the most difficult thing i have ever done!!!

It's so complicated & tough, not easy for me & I don't think it would be ever, it's so different when u r talkin to someone through msn , manjam, phone or what ever than meeting him in person,

the fact that you dont know this person & having no clue what might annoy,diturb or freak him out, that fear ties you & surronds you in a very narrow corner & makes you uncomfortable.

Well , right now I am in a mess & the road is not so clear but I am already there & no coming back is allowed but it's the hope that makes me keep going , yes I do believe there is someone I will share with him my life to come, someone will hold my hand , give me a goodnight kiss & someone around him the bEst of me is coming out , someone I will put his needs before mine, someone I will look in his eyes & see Myself there.

No matter how much time it will take , it's gonna happen when it's meant to be, I know I will be down sometimes & already I am since it's so hard , but it's possible ;)

I do no judgments to those who do causal fun , but I don't feel that way, call me a hopless romantic guy, but that's me & I would never change this side of me.

I enjoy simple things like a hug , rose , smile , soft unexpected kiss, these things are too important to me ... but what if I was just asking too much?

please guys tell me what do you think, honestly?!!!